Thursday 6 January 2011

...shit

I don't know what to write, there is so much in my head and am in turmoil but feel too cautious to say what's going on. Anonymity is precious. How to protect? How to vent safely?
Today I have let myself down. Things got too much and I needed a pressure release. I cut for the first time in a while. It felt fantastic and despicable. And now another thing to hide from people. So, yeah, shit today.

2 comments:

  1. It's one of the flaws of Blogger that you can't protect individual post. You would have to make the entire blog private - and give out a password to selected readers. Wordpress has the former option and it is possible to import your blog from here to there. I've had similar fears and have shifted blogs 3 times now and perhaps I'm a little more circumspect in what i divulge.
    I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. And sorry that you don't feel safe to vent here. I hope you don't beat yourself up too much over the cutting. It happens. Sometimes the strain is unendurable we may be excused for reverting to old coping mechanisms, no matter how dysfuntional.
    I do hope you find a way to feel comfortable writing on your blog and I hope things ease off soon. x

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  2. Thank you so much, I'm a dinosaur so will just leave it as it is. Am on verge of asking for help but feel have alot already so feels greedy so just trying to breathe! thanks x

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