...Frustrated

Today I feel frustrated.
This will be short, the cold and the snow have stifled me, short of words.
Had hoped this week would have a routine, I like, need, want routines. But, appointments are cancelled - again. There is no safety net. Feel so alone. I know I am lucky to have a roof and be warm. But my head needs some support that I can't seem to give it. 

...cold

... and wet, and wanting to hibernate. The weather is wild outside. My head is feeling fragile/too "borderline" and things feel a bit wild inside too. Far too many appointments this week, so glad have nothing fixed on tomorrow so am planning a day of catch up. I don't want to see anyone, explain how I feel, talk about mental health or have to leave the flat if I don't want to. Scary weather makes this a very likely scenario. My sleep is not good. 3 hours is a "good" night at the moment which isn't good at all. Insomnia allows voices and flashbacks in more too, so weary. I'd like a break, but then some might say my entire existence is a break. Yes, paranoia from the media coverage of welfare reform is getting to me big time. But not tomorrow please, a mini break tomorrow would be fine.