sad

hey you,yes, you (me), you (me) are very sad indeed.
stop wallowing in horrible wasteful feelings and get on
life is shit but everyone knows that, isolation is normal if you can't relate to people, it is ok to be this lonely if you can't hack the social world, it is perfectly ok to struggle, everyone does it, get on,
deal with it
Ok?

...that I have no idea

what to write here. Things are not going well. At. All. But too suspicious to write down what is going on. Wish I could. Wish I could ask for help and feel ok with doing that. A bank holiday weekend too, lots of time on my fat hands.