slipping

Slipping down into... what?
My energy is gone. I cannot sleep but I cannot properly be awake.
I have given myself so many excuses that I don't need to make the 3 minute walk to the shop. It can wait, I can wait, life can wait.
I have a list, things that I need to do, things that I haven't done, this list preys on my mind. As if doom is certain if I don't get the minutiae of life done. Does any of it matter? It has to in a way, what else does?
I am grateful for a break in therapy but, I am lost in it too.

What is going on?

I don't understand what's going on, either with the riots or with myself.
What are we as humans doing to allow / make this happen? Disspiriting and depressing. Heart is hurting pathetically for those that have been made homeless, have died or been injured, lost livelihoods and got caught up in something that they didn't want to be involved in. Humanity can be good, but just now, this, this is frightening.

Overwhelmed, bombarded, hopeless, shattered, hurt, worried, powerless. 
It is often a whimsical thought - that I want to escape the world, or stop it and to get off...

sad

hey you,yes, you (me), you (me) are very sad indeed.
stop wallowing in horrible wasteful feelings and get on
life is shit but everyone knows that, isolation is normal if you can't relate to people, it is ok to be this lonely if you can't hack the social world, it is perfectly ok to struggle, everyone does it, get on,
deal with it
Ok?